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ღ Monday, July 07, 2008

♥ lifelessness~ ♥

ok~ i have been back in msia for.... almost 2 weeks now =D whoot~
actually, its been exactly 2 weeks~
and the funny thing is that i do not have pics! O.O
did i hear a *Gasp* there?
lol~

cos i've mostly been staying home or spending time with my mummy laa~~ =)
hee~
being good daughter owhkieeee?? =D

anyway, i jus realised that i still have pictures i havent posted up from my japan trip (last dec) and from the end of sem party~ -.-"
will do that when i have the mood~ =P
heehee~~
so malasing nowwwww~~~~

n this week is my detox cum diet week~ =D
i hope hope hope that i lose weight~
i'm beginning to feel more fat than usual~ -.-"

ish~~~
hrrm~~
me thinks i will have another rushed 2 weeks of going out all over again~ -.-""
boohoooo~~~~
always aso lidat~
=/
but then again, i've been quite lifeless aso these days~
not many ppl ajak me out asoo~~~
where are all my friends!?!? =P
*jokes*

not having a car plus license aso making it tough on my social life (soon to become lacking~)
n i duno when my results are going to be out~ =(
i dun dare to find out what i'll get weiiiihhhh~~
sniffff~~~
esp finance..
finance oh finance...
pls do NOT let me failllllll laaaa~~
dun think my heart can take ittttt~~ -.-" or my emotional state~

aikz~
will update n post pics on facebook when i'm more up to it~ XD
toodles~

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12:07 PM

ღ Wednesday, June 18, 2008

♥ SIGHZ~ ♥

.BLOGGER.HAS.GONE.

.INSANE.

.DUE.TO.

.HIGHLY.PROBABLE.

.FAILURE.IN.

.FINANCE.EXAM.

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7:45 PM

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♥ finance~!!! =( ♥

ARRRRGGGHHZZZ~~
FINANCE IS IN EXACTLY 6 HRS FROM NOWWWW~~!!! =(
sighz~

to mum n dad : yes, i did get sleep laaa~ n erm~ i'm sorry in advance if i end up failing =(
sniff~

anyway,
i stil dont think i'm prepared! rawr!
sighz~ i hate hate hate finance!
my cousin reckons i'm gona end up majoring in it cos he claims i secretly love finance...
since the last time i said i hated acct n will never do it again, i ended up doing it as a major~ =/
sighz~

ok, too much sighing..
but cant help it laa~~

u noe wat?
i jus realised:
1.everytime after an exam or i stress, i end up cutting my fringe~
its so freakishly demented now cos i keep cutting it~
n u noe la, i'm not exactly the most talented at fringe cutting~ =/

2. everytime i have to prepare for an exam, i change my nail colour~ XD LOL~
i had a shocking pink wan before the monday papers~
n then now i've got a lighter shade of shocking pink~ XD

3. i put on more eyemake up during exam period~
i think its cos i think it covers my eyebags, which it doesnt really~ =/
at least it makes me feel that i've hidden them~ =P
plus, putting makeup makes me not wana sleep cos i duwana ruin it~ (yesh, i m vain~ sue me~)

4. i blogged less for the finals in this sem compared to previous sems!! surprise surprise!!

5. i aso slept more than i did compared to the previous finals~ i wonder if its a good thing anottt~ =/

6. i stress less this sem overall~ except that one time for financial accounting~ hrrrmmm~~ O.O

7. i think i'm starting to rely on xian too much~ =P LOL~ I FEEL SO LOST WITHOUT YOUUUUUU~~~ XD ROFL~!

i think thats all the things i've noticed in this sem~ =/

ARGHZ!!! cant wait to go bek~`
no wait..
CANT WAIT FOR FINANCE TO BE OVER!!!

n then oni talk about going bek~ hee~ =D cos after finance i self-proclaim myself to be FREEEEEEEEEE~~~~!!!!! =D
even tho i stil have differential calculus on sat and management accounting on mon~ =/
but WHO CARES!?!?!?! BWAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHHAAHAHAAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAAHAHAAHAHAHA~
ok, i shud go bek to studying now~ =)

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7:01 AM

ღ Thursday, June 12, 2008

♥ Nick Pitera and Exam~ ♥

ZOMB~
i cant blif that my exams are going to start on mon!!!!
its SO CRAZY~
i cant even get myself to study properly~ -.-"""""""""""""""""""""""""
it SO does not feel like exam study vacation~ =/ sighz~

xian so lucky, habis 3 out of 4 papers ade =(
boo~ =( i jealous..

we were talking bout our nasi lemak cravings not long ago~
ahah~
gona go bek n learn how to make =)
hee~~

on another note, audrey sent me this nick pitera cover of "part of that world" from disney's little mermaid~
it is SO INCREDIBLE~
like crazy incredible~!!!
heres the link :
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YAPlmEHo9QQ

and if u have the time check out his aladdin cover aso~
and aso the mariah carey boyz2 men aso~
ZOMB ZOMB!
i'm so crazy over his singing now~
hee~

xian copied my idea to blog bout him~ booo~ =P
LOL~ *jokez~* ahaha

i noe la, i shud be studyig, but i HAD to share nick pitera with u ppl hu havent heard his singing! =D hahaha~

PLUS!
this girl sang " a true love's kiss" from enchanted~
zomb~
i think its quite good too~ haha~
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IYvuTc0zv0w&feature=related#
her hair looks so nice too~ MUST WATCH!
*i noe u want to~ =P*

i have a WHOLE list of things to do when i go bek msia man~
cant wait~ =D
heeee~~~
(yes, i m planning for the holidays even tho i havent finished my exams~ =P)
ahahaha
wish me luck man~ =D

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3:06 PM

ღ Sunday, June 01, 2008

♥ An iMpoSsiBle PlaTonIc FrieNdShiP? ♥

i am going to do something mou liu now and blog about something totally TOTALLY random..
so.. here goes..

recently i've read posts, talked to friends about guy-girl relationships....
many times i've heard that guys and girls can't just be friends.. (from most of my close friends)=/
is it really true though?
i mean, can guys and girls really not just be in a platonic relationship?

i've heard it over and over again...
i got this off a friends blog, n she was talking about the guy-girl relationship:
"There is passion, enmity, worship, love,but no friendship"

i guess, if u think about it,
its hard for a guy and girl to be in a mutual friendship, without at least one of them having a more-than-friend feelings for the other...
cos, well, i'm sure everyone agrees that in MOST cases, this is true,
and everyone is always afraid of how friendships can be lost so easily, after something like that happens..
It is often something that makes us afraid to dabble into a platonic friendship with the members of the opposite sex...
and sometimes it can't be helped..
but when we are already in that friendship, we find ourselves thinking that maybe, just maybe one day, all this closeness, niceness, warmth and care will disappear from a small mistake, a change of feelings..
i'm not saying ppl think about this all the time la, but u cant deny that its probably crossed ur mind at SOME point of time~

even though i totally believe that guys and girls can be in a platonic relationship with one another,
it still bothers me sometimes..
but at the same time, if ur friendship survives all that, then maybe it was a friendship worth being a part of?
i mean, if lets say ur friendship fades away after something like that, then maybe it was a waste of time and effort, and possibly better that it ended the way it did rite?
RITE!?

but then again, EGO plays a pretty mean role in most situations..
and u noe la, guys and their egos, plus girls hu can also have pretty massive egos =P

maybe it is also the problem of expectations that we all face..
its quite dumb really, but most of the time it can't be helped..
i dont think that expectations can really be controled by us~
i mean, we can control whether we let it affect us or not... but i dont think we can really control the idea of the expectations..
like, we will always have some sort of expectation (with everything we do, be it a relationship, studies etc)
and this often gets in the way of our better judgements~ -.-"
unfortunately~
and i guess having these expectations can sometimes be a pain especially when it doesnt work out t he way we want it to... and lets face it, most expectations are almost nothing but a figment of our imagination~
becos not everything turns our the way we want them to.. (life is indeed unfair)
and the sooner we come to terms with that, the better it would be for everyone~
its again, another one of those "easier-said-than-done" cases..
and possibly never full achieved... becos, lets face it la, we're all humans.. and as they always say "humans make mistakes" yada yada yada~ cos we;re not perfect.. and so u noe, we're allowed to make errors... make the wrong decisions, take paths that are mismatched for us, experience things that we shouldnt have tried in the 1st place.. (i think this could just be an excuse that most of us , or rather, i use to comfort myself everytime i make some stupid decision or do something dumb and out of character)
expectations kills, ppl! O.O

then there are those friends (of the opposite gender), who are really close, and the moment they get a gf/bf, then the disappearing act starts happening =/
i mean, its understandable la~ cos u noe, u have someone else to teman and all, but dont la totally ignore ur friend -.-"
(i think i'm being partially hypocritical here=P)
but i did stil occassionally talk to my friends n stuff~ -.-"
i dont totally ignore them~ (hence the PARTIALLY hypocritical part)

heck, there are even situations where guys and girls only get into a friendship to get closer to the other person for intentions to be more than friends -.-"
i totally TOTALLY cant stand ppl like that~
it annoys me to no end~ SERIOUSLY!
if ur gona do that, then theres no point in wasting both ur time~
hoping that the other person will gain some sort of feelings for u thru that way is just so.. SO manipulative! =/
unless u can just remain friends after u've found out theres no hope of something more than that, i suggest u stay away~
(i wonder if i've gotten off topic?)

hrm~
but i guess my overall point is, dont be so quick to believe that guys and girls cant be friends, and only friends...
yesh, sure there are prob some movies and dramas (which do not happen in real life la~) which show that it can never happen,
or friends or other ppl telling u its not possible (which i think are their opinions, but then again, saying that guys and girls can be friends, and only friends is also just my opinion... )
or some sort of research out there proving that majority guy-girl relationships cant stay at friendship alone (but like it says, MAJORITY.. not ALL ma~ so it can still happen~)
i've heard and actually seen situations where a guy and girl can just be friends, or will still remain close friends after someone has feelings for the other party (closer than before,even)

often, i feel that ppl could just be misinterpreting signals, or mistaking the closeness feeling to like/love..
bcos, it would be an honest mistake.. we don't feel close to EVERYONE we meet..
and when we do find someone we're comfortable with.. it is easy to think that we like the person even when we actually jus like being friends with that person..
the idea of being more than friends clouds what we really want...
and ppl can be easily disillusioned by something like that, bcos we can influence wat we think in the simplest ways..
especially if ur the thinking-too-much kind of human like me~
but once u get used to the fact that those are just a mistake on your part (especially the overthinking things) then things just sort themselves out if u give it some time.. =)

n no, i m not blogging this becos i m facing some silly guy-girl problem now.. -.-"
that is like, the last thing on my mind...
i'm only blogging about this "issue" becos it is not as hard as getting myself to study~ =P and becos so ngam i come across this thing numerous times since yest~
so dont have to worry if u read this.. lol~

my biggest problem now is getting myself to study~ -.-"
ARGH~
which i keep saying i will do, but never actually get to doing~
someone help me pls? lol~ XD
ARGH~~!
*study stef, study!~* RAWR!

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7:22 AM

ღ Saturday, May 31, 2008

♥ putting life back into my dead blog~ ♥

sighz~
i have been abandoning my blog~ =(

i'm gona update on some of the stuff i've been doing =)
hee~
itll mostly be pics, cos erm~ well~ i've got to study after that~ sniff~or try to~ =(

Mamak Night (23/5/08)

teehee~
Ru Jih! she's so cute! lol~ she was wearing that plastic apron thing.. haha~

thats my cousin's friend, gina~ =)

some of the ppl i met that night..
l-r : girl1, girl2, girl3, pinky, van, me, girl4, szu huei~ =P
(SORRY to the girls whose names i forgot~ =( )
cant help it la~ met so many ppl that nite -.-"

l-r : huei, kiang, me, robert

sze ching =)

candid! XD lol~
or rather, me not letting enoch take a candid~ BWAHAHA~
my fingers look quite sengeted -.-"

ru jih n me~ =)

audrey, wan mit, me~

top: l-r : me, wan mit, audrey, clarrie~
bottom : ru jih, enoch~

MADSOC girls! lol~
l-r: wanmit, me, audrey, clarie~

wan mit, audrey, me, yu han~

the day of the showcase, i took this :

LOL~ cousin was driving ma~ hee~
so yeah, quite funny.. XD fat boi! XD

audreys hair! =D
nice leh??? i helped pin the stuff! =D whoot~
i think i was like, the personal asst that night.. XD

MADSOC (28/5/08)

ru jih n i~

candid~ i think enoch enjoys taking candid photos~ -.-"""""""
tsk tsk~

sze ching n i~

the performers and i~
l-r : wan mit, audrey, me, clarie~

some of the performances~ =)

ru jih, wanmit, me n audrey~

this was where they included everyone else~ lol~
like, the audience can join in~ =)
hee~ n they taught the ppl wat to do~ so funny cos some ppl ended up losing their partners.. XD

n then yest (30/5/08)

i burnt myself while curling my hair with the curling iron~
=(
sniff~
i think i'm scared for life~ =( SOBS so gross now~ sighhhzz~~~

ah well~
thats my week i suppose~
since last fri~ =)

i'm gona pray that i work harder in studying~ sniffles~
hope for the best for me kie? lol~
will possibly oni update later later~ =)

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1:11 PM

ღ Saturday, May 10, 2008

♥ yumcha updates! ♥

like i said in my prev post,
the yumcha updates! =)

yum yum~

enoch~rujih~

wong~phui khuan~ (not sure how to spell her name~=P)

stef~sze ching~

the girls~ ru jih~wan mit~audrey~stef~

the guys hu were supposed to act macho but didnt quite pull it off =P
sze ching~weai jiet~wong~

the bill thingy~
it added up to 145 i think~
split between 9 ppl, it was 16bux =D
so it was all gooood~ ^^
hee~

i think after that i went shopping with wan mit n audrey..
i oni bought a belt~ chamz~ -.-"

but nevermind~
on thur i bought lots of stuff~
BWAHAHAHAH~
2 dresses, 1 belt, 1 top n 1 skirt~ ^^
yay~!!!!!

but~
so horrigible man~
i shud be doing my asgmts!!!
this week, i'm gona c hain myself home liao~
be lifeless till all my asgmts are handed in~ GARRRRHHH~~
my busiest week is here~
chamz chaaammmmzz~~~~

aihz~i shud get started on my work~~

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7:56 AM

ღ Sunday, May 04, 2008

♥ snail updates~ ♥

as the title says la..
all these events happened like.. a week ago? lol~
n then i didnt have time to update cos i was like, worried for my midsem~
all the stressing + studying + emoing didnt help make it any easier to blog~ lol~

so anyway, i shall begin on the updates~
hee~=)

1stly, i got 10/10 for my linear algebra quiz =)
i think i wont get that for my differential calculus.. =/
but dun care la~ cant be THAT bad~ =) i hope..

n then i broke my nail while opening my cupboard =(

so sad rite? =(
but not pain la.. luckily...

so anyway, last last wednesday (23/4/08)
i went to this dinner and movie night thing organised by suams(sydney uni association of malaysian students.. i think..)~ =)
n so we had like, msian food for dinner n watched a movie later..
we got to pick our movies n audrey n i chose to watch spiderwick chronicles, regretting for the 1st quarter of the movie, cos it was quite creepy n scary la~ -.-"
but it got better =D
oh, n i was real sick that week.. so i had like a blocked nose, n blocked ears.. XD
i embarrassed myself cos of the blocked ears.. lol~
like, the convo was as follows :

esther : what course do u do?
me : sydney *thinking that she asked which uni do i go to*
everyone on the table : O.O
me : what did u ask again?
esther : what course do u do?
me : epping *thinking she asked where i live*
everyone on the table : O.O *laughs*
me : what?! what did u actually ask?
audrey : she asked what COURSE not where u stay..
me : owh.. commerce (liberal studies)
*MALUFIED TO THE INCREDIBLE MAXIMUM* =(

PICTURES~!

the menu : Chicken Satay, Ayam Masak Merah, Sambal Fish, Cashewnut Prawn, Chicken Percik, Gado-Gado, Teh Tarik =D
whoot~
i duno which dish was wat already~ ahaha..
but i give it a 7/10?
it was owhkay oni la~ XD but looked real good~

l-r: err, i forgot her name.. =( *sowee*, esther, me, audrey..

l-r : danni, pretty girl =P, esther, me, hock jeen...
note : hock jeen is xiang's friend! LOL~ from f6! what a coincidence rite? lol~
i was like, uber shocked when i found out.. O.o"
n no xiang, i have nothing bad to say bout ur friend.. lol~

spiderwick chronicles!

so anyway,
the next day (thurs, 24/4/08)
i went to audreys place to watch movie~ =)
i had lunch there 1st.. n then we watched "lars and the real girl" at nite..

spaghetti!

lol~ theres spaghetti underneath kie~ lol~
but the sauce was real good =D
*yum~*

Lars and the real girl~

i stayed over that night..
n then the next day, it was ANZAC DAY!
fri (25/4/08)
so it was a holiday~ =)
we tried to study most of the time la~ ahahah..
TRIED XD
n then we went to Rob's hse for a bbq party he was having in conjunction with his bro n his bday~ =)

harry~ haha! never fails to crack us up.. XD

yesh, we had alcoholic beverages..
and some drinking games..
thats rob.. =)

SPONGEBOB n ROB =)

audrey, chun, harry, eddie(?)

oh,
n this next pic is for.. XIAN, SHZEN n KOR KOR =)
at least it reminded me of them la~ =(

spongebob n ELMOOOOO~~

the cars character! i forgot his name~ -.-"
oh n thats my smirnoff =)

harry looking disgusted by elmo.. XD

n then we played wii~ =)
its tennis.. hahaha...so funny la...

camwhoring~

more camwhoring..
the dude on the far left is rob's bro.. i duno wat his name is.. XD
but i think he was high here..

at this point i was stil ok.. i was high la..
but not that siao.. yet.. XD

i forgot her name, but she was real nice =)
n she wasnt supposed to drink cos she had an exam the next day..
she got SO red.. O.O n she didnt even have that much to drink~

n then when i made chun pose..
i was sure i was officially high..

n then...

i began taking photos with random ppl...
n made audrey camwhore with me again =P
n again n again..

n then played more wii..
n was apparently noisy~
n then ven xhin jie jie called me.. XD
n then i was playing bowling while she called.. LOL~
n i got lots of strikes the moment she called..
how cool rite?
like, a lil good luck charm =D
whooot~!

scary bear.. O.O"
looks evil la wei~

after that we went out.. cos we had enuf of the wii..
n it was time for a drinking.. again.. O.O
this time it was i think a jagerbomb? i'm not sure~ -.-"
but quite cool..
u actually take the lil shot cup things n dunk it into the big cup n jus drink from it.. O.O

LOL~

after that we headed to the train station la~
n then went bek to audrey's place.. =)
i think i stayed up till 6am that nite/morning.. XD

anyway the next day (sat, 26/4/08)
i did something so spectacular~ -.-"
i broke the glass plate in the microwave~
altho, i didnt actually do it la~ it was sort of a freak accident~

proof O.O zomb~
i dun even noe how it can happen!
all i did was turn the nuggets on the plate in the microwave! =(
n then when i took off the plate, it revealed that~ =((((((((((((((

n then i went back la after that.. so tiring weekend~ haha..

on a brighter note, i tried making the tuna potato salad that evie gave me the recipe for..

voila~
it was good for a first timer like me..
my relatives loved it =)
so i think its a good start! whoot~

n then in the last week i've been studying.. or trying to.. for my midsem exam for financial accounting yest.. which was doable..
i'm not gona say more...

but after the exam yest, i went for yumcha, n then shopping~ =D
i bought a belt..
nothing more~ =(
i found a skirt i really liked, which was like, 90 bux~
crazy~
rm270 for a skirt...
that i m ay not wear often.. =(
but i didnt buy la..
altho i asked my mum in case i do want to get it again~ =P
n i'm allowed! whoot!
but i think mebe i'll wait for winter break when i go bek to msia n spore =D
then i went to sze chings hse for maths~ lol~
he's a good teacher~ haha =D

n as a last note,

my aunty tried the tuna potato salad recipe with pasta~ =D
n it was GOOOOODDD~~ =D
whoot~
i think i'll do that some other time.. hohoho~ =)

will update on the yumcha thing after i get the pics off audrey~ =D

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10:58 AM

ღ Wednesday, April 30, 2008

♥ ZOMB ♥

i tell u,
i have never been more stressed in my entire life~ -.-"
i noe i noe, its prob not the 1st time i'm saying this..
but seriously~i have NEVER panicked so much in the middle of the sem before!
usually its like, oni for finals -.-"
i think the asgmts stress is finally getting to me...
unfortunately too late~ =/
so now i have tons of readings, too much research to do n lots of writing involved~
GAH~

thank goodness for the ppl hu talk to me n keep me sane~ =D
u noe hu u are *winkz~*

i aso have to learn more bout myself~
i feel as though i dont understand myself anymroe~
what i want, what i like, what i dont like, what i feel~ =/
many questions left unanswered because i dont really look at myself anymore, no more believing in myself, just listening to what others have to say..
basically, i've just been lazy la~
lazy to interpret my own judgements and jus listening to others n assume theyre right just cos i don't wana look at it or think about it anymore~
i realise i tend to do that alot these days~ =/

a few days ago,
a close friend asked, "what happened to the old happy stef?"
i replied "gone" =/
sometimes i really feel awfully depressed, n i noe i shudnt be letting certain things get to me, n most of the time it CAN BE HELPED..
but i choose to let it control me, n say that i cant help doing them, cant help feeling them, cant help behaving in a certain way..
EXCUSES! =/

so my "assignment" over the weekend after my midsem wud be to discover myself again~ =)
anyone wana teman me? heee~ =D

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7:35 PM